under recovery

suffered today...
hardly pay any attention in class..
so followed my friends out to the toilet..
and talked with her..
but i ended up with lots of tears on my face...
during recess time, i couldn't hold it anymore..
lying on chin yen ru's shoulder and cried badly..
most of them were quite shock and asked me what happened..
you are good'..tat the only thing came out from my mouth..
i dunno what could i say bt just you are good..
You are really good and i'm really stupid..
my heart did pain..
and being hurt badly..
i told them that i just want to see you and talked with you..
and also slap u..
i slap u coz i wan to let u know that you couldn't treat a girl like that bt not hate you..
you are still good for me..i do believe that..
should i start a new relationship now?
i really can't stand..
i dun wan to think about u..dun wan to think anythg about us but it appeared!!
the 1st time i being hurted that badly...
how could i recover?
decided to dissappear during my 3 weeks holiday...
u know what are still in my mind?
the image that i cried in the rain..
the image that a boy accompany me in the rain and almost got cried when seeing me crying..
but u are not the boy..