spoilt

going out with him today..
lots of unhappy things happened..
dun wan mention it anymore..
coz over already..haiz...
what i sad for is this is the only date we have for these three weeks..
and it spoilt..
i know it's hard for us to go out or even meet after today..
having my test on 24 of november..
so..have to start studying tomorrow..
my last three weeks preparation will determine whether i can success or not..
yea..finally i know what my target is..
and hope that i can achieve..
jia you, doris ting...wakaka..
even u can't make it, but u already try your best..
that enough i know..
so god please bless me with more wisdom..xDD
after went home, bro told me that yesterday i saw ur x bought drugs at rex box there..
he still so small but started to take drugs..OMG
what i worry most finally happened..
but i'm really helpless..
i can't do anymore thing for you..
u know i told u before..
i worry u..worry that u will be influence by ur friends!!
but u never listen..
wake up please, boy..
u are just 16!!
what for take drugs!!
can u love urself more!!
dun be that stupid,k?
anything u need help u still can tell me..
i will help u..remember this..
coz we are friends..
u are still the stupid boy i met at life game..
u know yesterday i had a dream related to u..
dunno why..
maybe u really hurt me deep enough..
i can't forget how pain it is..
the first time waiting a boy under rain, the first boy that ruin my life after i lost him, the first time being dumped by a boy, the first time i know how pain it is when a boy say "I DUN LOVE U ANYMORE"..
but i know it's already past..
actually deep in my heart, i never blame u..never angry u for treating me so cruel..
coz i know that u ever love me with full of ur hearts..
so boy, i really dun wish that he step deeper and deeper..
family problems?school problems?friends?
everything has its own solutions..
pray hard for it and yet god will lead his hands to you..
he will save u from suffering, sadness..and give u joy and happiness..
i will pray hard for u..
wish that we can meet each other once..
so that pain deep in my heart can disappear..
so that i can get free from the shadows u left for me..
and also the chance to influence u back to the boy i ever know..