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long time didn't update any post already..
remember yesterday i had a talk with my mumi..
and yet i cried badly again..
i remember told mumi that nothing can make me happy now and why u took away the only thing that can let me feel happy?
everyone should learn to grow up as time passed..
but why i am just like a little girl that wont grow up at all?
i tot i open my heart for the other boy..
a boy who will send cola for me when i am unhappy..
a boy who care about me and feel sad when i cry..
a boy who touch me and make me cry happily..
a boy who know i will wake up at 4am sth and set his alarm to wake up for accompany me..
BUT I'M　WRONG..
maybe he is just too similar wif my x..
me: sorry..u are just replacement for my x..
B : nevermind..u happy and tat's enough..
me: i dun wan continue like tis..next time it's quite xia soi when we meet..
B : i will leave when u recover..
such a 'stupid'boy..i hope i dun hurt u..

Really unhappy recently..
'we' fought..
i din feel that u guys are wrong actually..
but never think that u all will treat me like that..
quite sad..
so i prefer to be alone and do my thg silently..
i dun wan to make 'her' hard to make ppl..
so i prefer to be ALONE..
i hate SCHOOL..i HATE it..
seem like troubles keep finding me...
SHIT!!i hate it..

sometimes i hope that i lost everything but not the thing i like..
hope that i still gt energy to continue life like tis..